43. Scattered Parts

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I have written of spirits, subpersonalities as carrying the energy of feeling thought and action; orientations for interaction. Theoretically, this comes from the writings of Carl Jung, Roberto Assagioli, and others. In a practical sense, I have encountered them in dreams, through different psychological methods, and in life. Like a GIF, they keep acting out their specific behaviour. I have come to see my journey as accepting them all (even when they seem awful) and bringing them into the whole, which is to allow them their rightful place for conscious expression through me.

They are the parts that actors act, and that authors bring to life.

I have listed some here, but there are multiples of this number. The journey is a long one if I am to find them all; a well experienced teacher told me this work will surely not be completed in our lifetime. That is not a reason to give up. As they come into consciousness and are accepted and assimilated, their characteristics are also accepted in others by ourselves. Gradually those relational turbulences start to dissolve, and interaction becomes accepting and others more companionable.

Many of what is seen below are a polarity, it is possible to recognise its opposite and it is the resolution of the opposites that is important and I have devoted a post to this.

Wise old man                                                            

Meditating robed men (meditating my life)

Mystic                                                                          

Adventurer                                                                 

Tired old man

Robin Hood                                                                

Knight

Vamp                                                                           

Beauty

Blind Deaf Intuitive                                                   

The part that loves me

The part that hates me

The part that kills me

Old Rascally Boatman                                              

Lady who loves me

Mr disease and pestilence                                      

Fear of Freedom

Wanting to love then kill                                         

Hard worker

Lazy beggar                                                                

Maidens with (various) feelings

Angry man                                                                  

Flow

Controlling Mother figure                                       

Trapped aspirational man

Orphaned babies                                                      

Orphan

Society Man                                                               

A part wanting to engage with higher feminine virtues

Mr beaten down                                                       

Mr Go forth

*Puella (playful, spontaneous, carefree girl)                                                                              

Mr Duty

Loose tongue                                                             

*Anubis

Miss Accepted not analysed                                   

Tight rope walker

Gambler                                                                      

Young knife man

19 year old having a dig (aspect of challenging adolescence)                                   

Guiding fat lady

President of college – Female doctor                   

Acutely ill waitress

Foster Mum                                                               

Bank manager – Female

Man Passionate about spirituality                        

Surgeon

Female wanting sensuous creativity                     

Analyst – dogma conformity

Wanting sex – Female                                

Mr Negativity

Critic                                                                            

Defender

King and Queen                                                                       

Lost little boy

Men servants to society                                                         

Sloppy paint worker

Intelligent lady                                                           

Mr Diarrhoea & Vomiting, dehydrated

*Lucifer                                                                                     

Hugging lady

Chastising old man                                                   

Checkout girl

Angina, Heart Attack man                                       

Old man epicurean cook

Muslim preacher                                                      

Gossip

Financial adviser                                                       

Baby daughter

Mr Vanity                                                                   

Vulnerable Asian man

Jew                                                                               

Sophia

Bugle lady                                                                   

Prince and Princess

Lecturer                                                                      

Young Psychiatrist, male

Large Brown Bear                                                     

Young Adonis

Young beautiful women                                                        

Rebel

Serving women                                                         

Old unassuming grey haired lady, losing papers

Huffy female                                                              

Self-improving man

Fighting women                                                                       

Chairwoman                                 

Journeyman

Boy with abdominal pain                                        

Police woman

Female consultant                                                    

Female nurse

Man giving me jewels                                              

Rabbi Master

Homosexual man                                                     

Male CEO

Scallywags (petty criminals)                                    

Fighting men

Fighting women

City posh guy                                                             

African warriors

Young sporty men                                                    

Plump Dancing lady                                                  

Big Black man

Grey suited functionary man                                 

Ambitious young man

Black robed nomad on horse                                 

Adoring young boy child

Angelic figures, light emitting                                 

Fat ugly computer bloke

Experienced wise lawyer                          

Black and white trickster

Decent hardworking housewife

Farmer provider

Young woman wanting to be loved                      

Young Boy wanting to flourish and grow

Beige grey old man wanting respect for who he is

Old racing driver wanting a rest

Demon of disease

Male and female dancers

Uncle Harry, portly pipe smoker

Controlling princess, when there, and when not there

Decorator in his 30s      

Kissing women                                                          

Young male stallholder

Hypervigilant protector                                           

*Isis

Darth, a clever dark character                               

Body rotting away man

Underperformer as homely scruffy man                           

Man of assent, up tidy ready for what comes

Going too fast, making mistakes                                         

Not Mr. Inadequate, but Mr. Poor Fit                  

Shepherd

Assagioli (Roberto)                                                                 

Judge (do not be too quick to – )                                          

Woman who wants (the wanting can attach to anything)

Jihadi                                                                           

Priest

*Calypso                                                                                   

Protecting horse guard

Spider called Princess                                              

Martial arts master

Bullying boys                                                              

Bullied boy

Attractive mid-life lady                                            

Big Fish Man

Intellectual man                                                        

Healer man

Must do something man                                                       

Money earner man

Torturer                                                                      

Destructive critic

Rescuer                                                                                     

Self-promoter.

Rejecter of others                                       

Clever gadget man

Rebel                                                                           

Hard driver

Tiger power, soft and strong.                                 

Quiet torture victim                                                  

White van man, rushing practical bloke

Depressed state person                                          

Animated young woman

Submissive                                                                 

Generous man

Self-sacrificer                                                             

Political polemicist

Discrete                                                                       

Storyteller

Ignorer                                           

Joker

Slow dipsy blonde woman

Flirty

Overly complaining customer

Gardener

Embarrassed by complements

Striving young man

Self deprecation

Well intended but destructive

Money chaser

Emergency physician

Academic man

Feels vulnerable

The part that wants to be loved

Feminine prostitute

Sculptor

Snob

Violent protestor

Bolshie adolescent

Artist

Fading actress

Mechanic man

Don’t give an inch man

Self elevator

Queue place defender

Nothingness as a place, as a thing

Slapped boy

Artist (creating life)

Weight watcher

Social climber

White Lion

Sad Clown

Protector

A woman that is the sum of all women

Distracting comforter

Exploiter

She who is ok with being exploited (by her grown up children)

Putting others first (self-sacrificer)

Putting oneself first (sacrifice of others)

Man out of society

Butterfly woman

Smiler

Afraid of failure

Student

Magnanimous

Dark Assassin

Acquiescent

Actor

Man practical with his hands

Bossiness

Conformity man

Victim

Popular musician

Looking for love

Fear

Self-putdown

Independent thinker

Forgiver

Does not want to do the work I am doing

Motivator

Self-destructive

Magisterial

Critic

The critic of the Critic

Delegator

Provocateur

Show off

Manager

Self-denial of what I want

Snoot

Some form a collective such as the woman who is the sum of all women. Yahweh (told me he was all of them) as would Jesus figures be, which have also appeared.

*Some, the mythological, were recognised by a Jungian analyst I was seeing at the time I encountered them. There may be others that I have been unable to recognise. Many of these characters are found in religious texts, myths, history and culture.

Some are very similar and might represent manifestations of the same dynamic, as they repeatedly come to me for acceptance and inclusion. This is a quick and dirty list and one day they might be better classified.

There is more I want to write about them. What they want, their characteristics and how they function at different conscious levels and with different levels of intensity, how they conflict and cooperate into complexes. It is what constitutes much of the experience of human turmoil, psychological difficulty, and misery. That will have to wait for another post.

I wanted to show in this post that there are many, many parts. While I am white, male, Caucasian, late middle-aged etc. the fragments above show to me that my soul is constituted of a much greater diversity; female, black, Asian, young and old etc. and I have found more than is demonstrated here. My body gets me along the world, but my soul is working its way to integrate the all that I am, all of my being.