57. Connections – Don’t Wait, Get on With Life

These posts I have called Connections are about the direct relationship with the Higher Self, and its various symbolic manifestations.

At this time, during early retirement, (while in slow recovery from the exhaustion of chronic burnout), I was seeking a new direction in life from within. But none came. I repeatedly asked inside “what shall I do”, and was given the answer “continue as you are”. I have read that many people are waiting to be told by God what they should do in life. Then I had this experience.

Man of the Cross

I settled into my chair and did a body scan (as one would for say Mindfulness Meditation). I had a sense that my body was carrying a lot at the moment – it felt heavy in my upper chest and out to my shoulders. 

I then had a sense of a man there in the upper centre of my chest, about a foot tall, who was postured as though he was on a cross. He came to life-size in front of me and was on a cross. 

I wondered what he wanted. He said something like he wanted to guide me, and that he wanted me to follow him. This was quite strongly put. 

He said get engaged with everything, leaving me with a feeling that I should just get on with everything that occurs to me. Just get on with it all – life. 

A call to be with this symbol of Self while engaging in the world. 

I could say that wanting some kind of indication for a new grand project (like a new career), had been holding me back. I was also held back by indecision, again waiting to be told from inside. I needed to get on with what was before me and develop what I wanted to do. To make my own decisions and take responsibility for them. By putting myself out there I will best find my ways to grow. I had been told from within another time that whatever I did, my guide would work with that. Could I learn anything by doing nothing?

So a seeming paradox of following him, and yet getting on with my life. I took that to mean that I get on with my life and in that, I can be guided by him, maybe the active life and contemplative life lived contemporaneously in context. Would the Christians call that a life lived in prayer? A guide cannot guide me if I remain still and do not engage with life. I have not found it easy at all.

This might not be the way for everyone. I write this post so that others might consider it an option not to stand and wait for a signal or an instruction, but to get on with life anyway if it is right for them,