An inner experience:-
I felt a sensation inside and I said hello and welcomed that.
Then I heard a voice and she said “I love you Tony.” I acknowledged her.
At first I had a sense of her being Calypso out of the Odyssey, and then later Isis the Egyptian goddess, (both of whom I had met before, identified by a Jungian analyst, they are inner psychospiritual dynamics like may mythological figures) but when I quizzed this she said they are the same. I was unsure about this, its authenticity as received by me and let it go.
Then there was something of a vision of me having my face taken away and a crown slapped down over my head.
Something came about having multiple faces and bringing the right face to context, or facing a context in the right way and the revolving crown relating to changing faces.
She told me to be careful in the way I reveal people to themselves.
Then I saw a white lion jump forward out of the front of me! I wondered what this might symbolise; I thought power, rarity, and something that might wear a crown, and there was an issue of acting through instinct (def. an innate, typically fixed pattern of behaviour in animals in response to certain stimuli.)
“I would like you to behave this way.” The lady was still there. “This is how people grow, this is how we all grow Tony.“
“I love you Isis and I love your wisdom and you manner of conversation.” The welling up of this feeling is hard to describe, it is without attachment.
“I love you too Tony, and we are as one.”
“I am though in the world, and that brings responsibility, and if I am to live in context as a lion, the king of my jungle and adopt appropriate being, I do have to be careful.”
“You do indeed Tony. Opportunities will come your way. Be mindful of them, and take responsibility for them, as a good king, as a lion might.”
“Thankyou.”
I looked into the symbolism of the white lion and there is such a variety of interpretations that I concluded that I could go with what I had decided above.
Being careful about revealing people to themselves. I clearly needed to be reminded of this. I have found this when people are harshly criticising others, and it occurs to me that the behaviour they criticise is often exhibited by themselves. I know I cannot broach things with them, because it would cause all manner of difficulty. I have seen friends and family relationships lost.
The lion though is on the inner landscape, jungle, I don’t pretend to have that influence in the world. I wonder if this is bringing things together and under better control at the instinctual level of my consciousness. If I could bring my instinctual behaviours into alignment with appropriate expression for given contexts that would be a useful growth step. it might help me manage situations where others are expressing their instincts.
The Isis figure I met a long time ago in one of my earliest dreams. I wrote about her as the Behind the Veil woman in post 4. Crossing Thresholds. She told me on another occasion to relate to the inner feminine through love. I believe it is the glue that holds and balances the whole.
I have encountered her several times since. She is the closest thing I have to the representation of the complete woman in me, and I take her advice seriously. This Focusing session was full of integrated symbols relating to one another; the holistic feminine, the holistic instincts, the crown a symbol of wholeness, and the blank face through which any of these can be lived, hopefully in a contextually appropriate way. Clearly aspirational.
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